These times, they are a changing...

Good afternoon, beautiful souls!

I have so much fun news to share today. First of all - thanks for coming back. I know there is a ton of information fighting for our attention these days. But all of it hasn't felt too good has it? That's why my mission is to continue to focus on love and healing. 

From now on, I will be infusing actual love energy and healing into each of my blog articles, so that hopefully you'll feel a little better after reading them. It's one thing I can do to help with the collective energy. Help one person at a time feel, know, and recognize love. And I love each and every one of you!

I have started a year-long mentoring intensive with my spiritual teacher to continue and deepen my path as a healer. We are clearing and healing the energy on so many amazing situations, places, and people. More to come on this in the future. We are a small collective, but a powerful group of healers with the same mission: healing the planet, ourselves, and each other (meaning YOU!).

As you can imagine, that brings up quite the resistance and healing within during our path. No one ever said Soul Work was easy. But it is worth it.

The amazing news is that there is so much healing along the way, making me an even better, more in tune practitioner with an even clearer vision for how I want to help people. There is so much suffering that is unnecessary and that can be cleared and healed with a little work on both sides: from me as your teacher and from you - standing tall in your truth and owning your commitment to heal. 

That said, I understand more than ever that my mission is to help others with deep healing through the process of what I call "flower work." This is also the art of softening, or discovering how to lean in toward love. It sounds a lot easier than it is - especially when you're faced with negative and toxic energy from those around you. But there is strength in softening, and choosing a path toward love. It does not mean giving in all the time and being walked all over. There are ways to soften around a situation or person without losing yourself and without giving away your power. I will be sharing more about this in the future and with a book I am working on.

In the meantime, I'll be completely revamping this blog and uniting my efforts under one umbrella. So stay tuned for beautiful updates and lots of healing opportunities. If you aren't already, please like my Facebook page: b.Reiki. It will be changing soon as well to better reflect my brand, but I will be offering a lot of opportunities to have clearing help and relief in that group by offering free monthly group clearings, as well as once a week check-ins and answering questions of the spiritual nature, or offering a quick clearing on a given situation. 

Never forget that #lovealwayswins. And we are all empowered to rise up and own our place in making this happen. I can help along your journey, and am excited to work even more closely with you.

If you have suggestions or questions, please drop them in the comments below or on my Facebook page.

Much love to you today, and always!
Colleen

You Had the Power All Along ~ or "10 Easy Steps on Your Path to Enlightenment"

This article is for those who are stuck in their lives, know they want a change, and have no clue where to start. You just know that whatever it is you're doing...it's not working. You may feel:

• Lost
• Empty
• Anxious
• Fearful
• At your wit's end
• Unfulfilled
• Disjointed
• Ready to Change
• Hopeful

This is truly for those who have had enough and are looking for lasting changes in their lives. You know you cannot keep doing the same thing and expecting different results. But there's one big impediment to total happiness: You have no freaking idea where to start.

The idea of starting a "spiritual journey" can be daunting. But before we talk about those "easy" steps, let's break down the idea of "enlightenment," and what we're really searching for.

Enlightenment is defined as "the action of enlightening." The definition is even vague. It's no wonder we have no clue what it really means or how to get there. But the key word in that definition is "action." The path to "enlightenment" is made up of all the little choices we make each and every day to become and stay awake, conscious, and connected to love.

Synonyms to enlightenment are a little more helpful: insight, understanding, awareness, wisdom. Those sound a little easier to tackle, right?

Here's the kicker. Keep in mind that the answers you are seeking are all already within you. That's the scary part. Most people who start their spiritual journey run out, arms flailing, yelling, "Tell me how to become enlightened!" They may spend years searching for the right religion, the right guru, the right meditation teacher, the right answers someone else can give them to better understand their own truths.

But the only way to enlightenment is through yourself. What you are really seeking is a connection with something meaningful, something bigger than yourself. We call this God, the Universe, Source, the Creator, Truth, the Divine, or Love. And it already resides within us.

The closer you get to these universal truths, the more other parts of our lives that no longer work begin to feel uncomfortable. We realize that what we are doing is no longer a good fit. It doesn't feel right, and may not make us happy any longer. It's because you are waking up. Outgrowing what no longer serves you. This is good news. It means you are READY.

So...let's talk about how to get there, shall we?

STEP ONE
Get a journal. Because we all know that no good spiritual journey can begin without a journal, right? The reason I recommend a journal is because you will be internalizing, processing, examining, and learning a lot throughout your journey. It's good to jot these insights and learnings down, work through your feelings, and even make notes about things you wish you knew more about. It doesn't have to be fancy to work. It can be a simple composition notebook that costs less than a dollar.

STEP TWO
Start by a making three lists. These will just help jumpstart the process of examining, or looking inward at some hard truths. 

1. Everything you love about yourself. If you can't write "love" yet, then start with everything you like or acknowledge is a good quality. It can be something small like "I have nice toes" to something bigger like "I have a lot of empathy for others."
2. What is currently not working in your life, what you are afraid of, and what you want to change. {Do not make this list in your journal; make this on a separate piece of paper. You'll see why in the next step.}
3. A list of all the things that make you happy. These can be as simple as things like: coloring with my niece, eating apples, seeing the stars, singing in the shower, or talking to friends. Don't over analyze the list, just think about all the things that make your soul smile, no matter how "silly" you may think they are (I like to color-coordinate closets; don't judge!).  

STEP THREE 

Make what I call a "God Box." Again, it doesn't have to be anything fancy. It can be an old shoe box or something more meaningful to you. I use a small ceramic box I found at Home Goods that spoke to me. It cost less than $10. The point isn't the container itself, it's what the container symbolizes. What you put inside your God Box is that which no longer serves you. The things you want to let go of. The things that make you afraid. There is an old expression that says, "Let Go, Let God." It basically means let go of the fear, the need to control, the worry. And TRUST that the universe has your back. Let God in. This is the connection to the Universe, to the truth you are seeking.

So first you need to acknowledge, and then willingly / ceremoniously let go of that which is standing in your way. Many of these may be self-imposed barriers. That's okay. You don't have to worry about what comes next. There is something freeing about making an intention to let go of what no longer serves you. The thought of letting these things go can actually dredge up fear - after all, we've been living with some of these things that no longer serve us for years.

We've gotten comfortable in our discomfort. 

But when we can let go of the fear, we open up the space to let in that which we want and need even more: truth, peace, happiness, love.   

So write down those fears and the things you are ready to shed, say good-bye to them, and place them in your God Box. Do not go back and revisit them. Know that the Universe has taken them on for you, is carrying the weight of them now so that you no longer need to.

STEP FOUR

Ask for help. You need to just let God, or your guardian angels, or the Universe know that you are ready to release your fears and start seeking your truth. It's as easy and as hard as that. Ask for the wisdom to come into your heart at the time when you are ready to receive it. Ask that the answers be revealed to you, that your growth starts to happen in a way that is always for your highest good. Do not try to control the timeline of when the Universe answers your prayers or responds to your call for help. Trust is hard for some of us, I get it. But you must trust in divine timing and know that when you are ready, your answers will start aligning themselves and your heart will truly be ready to receive them.  

STEP FIVE

Be patient. Between asking and feeling like you are actually learning is a lot of waiting, a lot of sitting in the now, being present in the life you have. This waiting is actually the path you need to be on. There is no "here and there." You will not all of a sudden come to a point in your life and say: "Holy shit, I'm enlightened now!" Some people spend their entire lives on their spiritual journeys, others understand their truths like a bucket of cold water being dumped over their heads: suddenly, with shocking clarity. No matter how long, or jumbled, or instant, or hard, or easy our paths are, there is one certainty: they are all unique based on our soul's journey. And no one is better than us just because they "seem" more enlightened, or to be living their truths faster or more wholly than we are. Here is the God's honest truth:

We are ALL worthy. We are all equal. 

We are all on different paths at different times.

And that is all OKAY.  

STEP SIX

Which leads to this: Give yourself plenty of grace during your journey. Starting on your path to "enlightenment" does not mean you will now be perfect. It does not mean you will be a happy, perfect, kind, of the light, blowing rainbows out of your a** every day kind of person. The truth is, we are spiritual beings living a human existence. I'm sure you've heard this before; that's because it's true. We are here on earth because we are HUMAN, and we have human experiences to learn and grow from, and we are all seeking our way back to the TRUTHS we know exist. This is the connection back to source, to our spiritual selves. To the happiness we are seeking. But we are still human. So give yourself plenty of grace. The universe does not expect perfection. Perfection is a human trait that we try to master to CONTRL our fears. (Ever thought one of these before: If I am perfect, I will be lovable. If I'm perfect, I can't be fired. If I'm perfect, I will love myself. If I'm perfect, I can't be hurt. If I'm perfect, I won't lose control.)

We need to acknowledge and move through our fears to let them go, not try to control them and continue to put on our masks of "perfection." As Glennon Doyle Melton would say, this is sending out your "representative" into the world, not your true, authentic self.

STEP SEVEN

Find some quiet time every day to just be still. It can be five minutes to start. You can call it meditation or you can call it silence or you can call it connection to the divine. Whatever you call it, just make time for it.

Some people like to use a mantra and repeat it over and over again in their head to try to quiet their monkey minds and have something to focus on. Start with the Sanskrit term: "So ham." This means "I am Him/That," which identifies oneself with the universe or ultimate reality (meaning: I am one with God). It unites yourself with the divine universe during your five minutes of quiet time.

Others find comfort and peace listening to spa music or guided meditations. You can sit on a pillow or in a chair, or you can lie on the floor. With meditation, there is no right or wrong as long as you are getting the stillness and connection that you need.

The purpose is the connection.

It is the intention you are setting with the universe and with yourself that says: I am making myself and my journey with you a priority.

I know that if I can have five minutes of connectedness with you today, I will feel happier.

It may take months for this to happen, but eventually, you will begin to notice the benefits. There are tons of books, downloads, free podcasts, and gurus who can all speak more to the experience of meditation. You can certainly check all of these out when you are ready. And Deepak and Oprah offer free 21-day meditation experiences several times a year that are truly life-changing. These are guided meditations and are completely free. Check out Deepak's web site or join this closed Facebook group for updates on when the next one starts.

BUT...and this is a big BUT...do NOT let the "HOW" interfere with the "DO." So many people say, "I always wanted to meditate, but I never learned how, so I can't." They become so intimidated with the PROCESS that they never start. Here's all you need to truly meditate:

YOU. That's it.

You can meditate on a toilet at the airport. You can meditate in a room full of people. You can meditate on a mountain top in Peru. You can meditate on your living room floor with your kids. It's as easy as that to begin. Once you are comfortable doing it, then you can seek out other ways to meditate, try different styles, or try expanding your quiet time to ten minutes, then twenty minutes a day. The key is to honor the quiet connection and stillness, and to put your intention toward this commitment. Because...

STEP EIGHT

Energy flows where attention goes. This is the hardest truth to understand but also the most simple.

Everything is energy, and we either attract high vibrational energy (when things seem easy, we are happy, we feel good, things just seem to go our way), or low vibrational energy (we are stuck, things seem harder than necessary, we can't get out of a funk, our negativity feeds and grows off itself).

We get to choose by aligning our words, our thoughts, our actions, and our choices. It is one of the hardest shifts to make, and you may have to do it moment-by-moment every day for the rest of your life. But the key is: Once you know better, you do better. Our thoughts can literally create our reality, and our words to ourselves are so powerful. Use your journal to write out beliefs that you have about the universe or how your life usually goes. If you notice self-limiting words, patterns, or actions, reframe them. Instead of: I can never hold a steady job. Reframe your self-talk to: I am excited about the next opportunity that is coming my way. It is going to be even better for my highest good. Or even: Each new job is an exciting step in the right direction to my dream job. 

It may sound hokey, but it works. So many times each day we are confronted with limiting words, beliefs, advertising messages, and patterns. All geared toward fixing ourselves and sending messages to our brains that we are just simply not good enough as we are RIGHT THIS MOMENT.

That's bull shit. We need to reprogram how we talk to ourselves, be wary of what messaging we let in, and remember that we are exactly as the universe made us for a reason. If we are constantly focused on the negative, guess what we'll get more of? To bring in the positive energy, start paying attention to how you speak to yourselves and others. What you say when you're joking around. What hidden beliefs you may be harboring. Then work on shifting them. Pay attention and put your energy into what you WANT to bring into your life. (Read You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay if you want more help with positive affirmations.)

STEP NINE

Manifesting. I could write a whole article on this subject alone, as manifesting is one of my favorite topics. There is a famous book you might have heard of which is a great place to start for beginners who have never thought about manifesting before. It's called The Secret.

But here's all you need to know and truly believe in your heart: The Universe is trying to help you.

You've already asked for help back in Step 4, right? So now you have to really believe that the universe is aligning things to make your happiness a reality. Does that mean you sit back, say "manifest for me!," and poof! All your dreams come true? Not at all. Any dream worth achieving takes sweat equity. One of my favorite quotes is: "I never said it would be easy, I said it would be worth it." Enlightenment is not for the faint of heart. But we can manifest our dreams and our happiness if we are committed to doing the hard work THROUGH. Your journal is a great place to write down your thoughts and dreams and what you want to manifest in your life (speak to others more kindly, get a new house, find a husband, love my body).

STEP TEN
Even at forty-two, I am still learning each and every day. What I know now, more than ever, is that our only barriers to love, to enlightenment, to happiness, to whatever you want to call it, is ourselves. It is our fear and the barriers that we have self constructed.

Because WHAT IF we were truly happy? WHAT IF we lived from a place of love? That's kind of scary, right?

To be so open and vulnerable in our happiness.

But that authenticity, that honesty with ourselves and our place here on earth, allowing our happiness in and knowing we are worth it - that is what we strive for. And to get there, we need to go through the darkness that is inside of us: our old beliefs; our past experiences; our true feelings, no matter how dark or scary; our fears.

I have learned that our fears are always bigger in our minds than they are once faced. And once we face them, they no longer hold power over us. But we have to BE READY to face them. So go back to Step 6 and give yourself grace. 

The last thing I'll say about deconstructing our self-limiting barriers is to TRUST your intuition. When things are aligned, we are in the flow, our energy is good, and we are living authentically - we feel it. Our bodies tell us at a gut level that things are good. And when we aren't, when we have unresolved emotions and when we are acting against our highest good, our bodies tell us that too. In the way we manifest sickness and dis-ease. We can literally make ourselves sick when, at a cellular level, we are going against our highest truths and not living in connection with Source and with love. 

SO NOW WHAT?
These ten steps aren't in any particular order. They aren't a check list to complete and voila! You're magically at enlightenment. Just try a step when you are ready. Start with something that resonates with you. And go back to these synonyms from when we first started: insight, understanding, awareness, wisdom. 

If you're seeking and finding these things, you are already on your path. There is no end state for enlightenment. You're not going to cross a finish line and no one's going to hand you a medal and say, "Congratulations, you are finally enlightened!" 

But when you find the things that make you happy, when you do the introspective work and try to gain awareness, when you connect to a higher wisdom than yourself and seek insight, and when you break down those fear-based barriers and truly accept that the universe is there for you and that THIS IS THE LOVE YOU ARE SEEKING, I think you will begin to feel that feeling of peace and contentment you've been looking for. 

And you'll realize that the answer was within you all along.

Angels Among Us

While on vacation with some friends last weekend, we were bombarded with signs from our angels. It didn't surprise us because one of my friends and I are both highly in tune with recognizing, witnessing, and internalizing these beautiful messages from above. They are God's way of showing us that angels are near, we are always protected and loved, and to remind us that they are there to help. Sometimes they can also be signs from a loved one who has crossed over to just say a gentle hello.

While recounting these occurrences to another friend, I was asked what kinds of signs I receive, or how we know our angels are talking to us or sending us messages. It's really easy, once you:

1) Open your heart to receiving them.
2) Start paying attention and observing patterns. 
3) Discover the way you receive information. 

OPEN YOUR HEART
The key to listening to your angels is to truly know and believe they are here for you. Almost all religions make reference to angels, who are simply messengers from God. Think of them as God's right hand servants who are here to help. Even if you don't know an archangel from a guardian angel, it doesn't matter. They are pure love and do not judge our humanness. Simply start by setting your intention with the universe by saying: I am open to receiving messages of light from my angels, for my highest good. Please help me begin to notice the messages sent to me from above.

If you are looking for a sign for something in particular, or you need help from your angels, you simply have to ASK. Be very specific.

• Please show me you are here by helping me notice a heart symbol today (or symbol of your choice). 
• I need your help deciding what I should do about my job. Please help bring the answers forward in a loving and safe way that I can handle at this time, and for my soul's highest good.

Angels are here by our side every day. However, you must ASK for their help (they do not live your life for you or interfere on our behalves), believe they have heard your prayer even if your answer hasn't been delivered on YOUR timeline (trust in God's timing), and stay observant to the signs around you. Every person is given a guardian angel, you just need to learn how to connect with yours.

Please also note that angels are 100% light and the pure universal love of God. Angels will never show you a sign that scares you or confuses you. They will guide you with confidence, love, and protection.

PAY ATTENTION TO PATTERNS

As you begin to TRUST that the patterns you are seeing or hearing in your life are in fact gentle nudges from angels, you will grow more confident in observing and trusting your signs. Once you do, there is nothing as comforting and loving as knowing God is always beside you, showing you love through the angels assigned to protect you and guide you.

Patterns are simply a repetition of events. We will talk about HOW you receive information next and what some common "signs" are. But an example is how I receive angel messages through numbers. Have you ever looked at your phone just as the time read 11:11? The next day you might get a receipt and notice the date of 11/11. Then be watching a show and see an image flash up that has the numbers 1111 on them. You will begin to notice that you are seeing this number every where. (The number will be specific to you, but it usually a repetitive number like 222, 333, 444, 555. The more numbers in the sequence, the stronger the message: 1111, 7777, etc.)

HOW DO I RECEIVE INFORMATION?

You can receive signs from angels through all of your senses, depending on how you "take in information" energetically, and sometimes we are open to multiple ways. I haven't listed taste as it's not a common way to receive angel messages. The most common ways are to:

• SEE signs (find a feather)
• HEAR signs (a perfectly timed song)
• FEEL signs (a light breeze that feels particularly comforting)
• SMELL signs (a rose fragrance arises when not near flowers)

COMMON ANGEL SIGNS

There are so many different ways angels show us they are among us. It is really specific to each person, and yours may be completely unusual and unique. I'd love to hear if you have different ones so we can expand and grow this list. Here are a few of mine, and some other common ones that show up. 

• Feathers
• Coins (certain side up?)
• Stone or shell
• Numbers
• Songs
• Ladybugs
• Clouds shaped like angels
• Hearts
• Dragonflies
• Birds (cardinals and robins are common)
• Butterflies (notice who comes to mind when you see a particular color)
• Your spirit animal
• A certain color
• Sparkle of light
• Music (in a certain note, a particular line, or the same song)
• Rainbows
• Tingling feeling on the scalp or back of neck (this will NOT scare you)
• A warm, soft breeze
• Signs or advertisements
• A feeling or intuition (Turn here! Switch lanes! Skip this store today.)

One day I was driving down the street praying for a sign from my angels about a certain situation in my life. I was driving a similar path that I always do, so nothing was new to me. All of a sudden, I look up and see a bright red sign that says, "Grace." I've driven by that same store dozens of times and could not have missed this big, bright sign. And yet...this time, when I needed it, I was reminded to give myself and others GRACE. Thank you, God, for the reminder!

LEARN TO TRUST & GIVE THANKS

When you first start opening to receiving your angel signs, you may need to ask more to get the validation and proof you seek in order to grow your confidence. After a while, you will just smile every time you see one of your signs and will feel comforted knowing your angels and God are all around you. Whenever I see a sign from my angels, I always say, "Thanks, God." It makes me smile and I love expressing the gratitude I truly feel every time I notice one of these amazing gifts from the universe.

Drop me a note in the comments below and let me know if this was helpful for you, or if you receive other signs from your angels! I'd love to hear from you. And stay tuned for more in-depth blog posts about: 

• Feathers and their meanings
• Angel numbers and their meanings
• Archangels and when/why to call on them
• Your spirit animals/guides 

And never forget: your angels are always around you, they love you, and they are here to help protect and comfort you. 

 

The Choice of Softness

you do not have to be fire
for
every mountain blocking you.
you could be water
and
soft river your way to freedom
too.

- options

written by nayyirah waheed


What does softness mean to you? There used to be a time when it had a negative connotation; and, for many people, it still does. When you hear the word, does your mind automatically jump to a weakness, or a strength?

Wait...did I just say strength?

Yes. And I'm talking about a silent, soft, knowing strength of the spirit. One that allows you to choose to come from a place of softness, instead of anger, rage, frustration, hurt, fear, lack of knowledge, retaliation, habit, resistance. 

This notion of softness has been rolling around in my mouth for a while due to an old wound I need to work on healing. When I stumbled upon the beautiful poetry of nayyirah waheed in her book salt, my mind, my heart, and my soul forever shifted, especially because of her concepts around intimacy, speaking your truth, and softness: all things I am addressing with this one wound, this one relative.

In one poem, she writes, simply: stay soft. it looks beautiful on you.

How many of us cannot stay soft because of what life has dealt us? We choose instead to become victims, let our anger take over and petrify our hearts to stone, until we no longer recognize our own softness. We forget how to speak with kindness; how to see with love in our eyes. Forget that the person across from us is dealing with a myriad of wounds too.

I typically choose to look on the bright side of things, and haven't turned toward the raging fire, the wooden walls, the chip that can burden your shoulders. So I thought I was free from the hardness that eats away at people, changes them, robs them of their authenticity. I was wrong. My guardian angels have gently reminded me that, perhaps, in this one case, I am reflecting back what I feel from this person/when I am around this person, and in turn, not allowing myself to be soft in return--with the one person who may actually need it the most.

As Eckhart Tolle once said: Where there is anger, there is always pain underneath.

Pushing anger back at someone who is also angry and harboring deep-seeded pain, will never improve the quality of the relationship. It only serves to further damage an already delicate balance of trust. 

A friend and I just had a great conversation about this very topic, which has shed even more light on the subject for me. She knew exactly how I was feeling, but called it something a little different.  She'd read somewhere about the concept of how to stop resisting. She was in a very difficult situation dealing with an ex on a regular basis. Because of past experiences, she always had her guard up with him and expected him to come at her with aggression, hostility, and "the uglies" as I like to call them. Just spew his venom at her, because he had in the past. Every interaction was typically painful, emotionally exhausting, and heavy on the soul. She carried this heaviness around with her and was ready to release it. When she realized she would never change him, she realized the change had to start with herself.

Let me repeat this key concept: you will never change the person you have the issue with.

You have to first decide: how toxic is this relationship? Because not all relationships need to be held on to, nor should they be (especially if they are abusive in any way). But if the relationship is important to you, or you have no choice but to interact with the other person, then you have to find a way to change the way you view the situation, and the way you choose to respond to the other person. Now, let me just say this: It is harder than all get out to change our internal dialogue, gut-level reactions, and hurt when it comes to emotionally charged situations and people in our lives. But remember, you are doing it for yourself first and foremost. Allow yourself the grace and beauty of softening. 

For my friend, it started with a simple change in tone when she greeted her ex. You wouldn't think that would make a huge difference, but she stopped herself one day and told herself: stop resisting. That doesn't mean she let herself be a doormat for him and didn't stand up for herself. It meant, she allowed herself to soften and come from a place of love instead of fear and anger. Trust me, there was a lot that she legitimately has the right to hold on to. But to what end does it serve? Who does it really hurt?

If you want better, you do better.

So she did. And in doing so, she changed. And she is so much happier after letting down her resistance and expectations around how it was "supposed" to go with him; and the new freedom this opens up within her heart is hers to be had.

As someone wise once said: Holding on to the anger of your past robs you of your ability to love in the present.

So, what's my take away from all of this? I am ready to let go of my anger, resentment, hurt, frustration, and unrealistic expectations. I am ready to stop blindly hoping this person will be able to change. If they do, I would be thrilled, because I genuinely love this person and want to see happiness and peace return to their life. However, I am ready to change the way I interact with them, and try to come from a place of pure love in the relationship, as much for my sake as anything else. This is how I approach the rest of my life, and I'm ready to stop resisting.

I know I need to take the first step and be the change I hope to see in my life.

Because I've heard a little rumor that softness just might look beautiful on me too.

Pick Up the Damn Sword

The Universe was trying to tell me something. I just couldn't figure out what.

Even though I was (mostly) a stay-at-home mom, I had also started a highly successful freelance editing business as The Grammar Babe. What started as a part-time effort, mainly to stay busy while my kids slept and my husband worked, soon took on a life of its own. Let's just say I'm good at manifesting. Don't get me wrong: I love my work as an editor. Editing novels was my dream come true. I mean, who wouldn't love to get paid to read books for a living?

But something finally dawned on me one day when I read this quote by Tony Gaskins:

"If you don't build your dream, someone else will hire you to build theirs."

 

That was exactly what I was doing. And while I love my clients and believe in their dreams and their writing, I was not adequately investing in myself. And I have every reason to. So, I had what I like to call a "Come to Jesus" with myself and asked, "Self, what is your highest purpose? What did your soul come here to do this time around? What do you have to learn from others? What do you want to teach?"

The answers were within me the entire time.  

1) I'm a communications major.
2) I'm a writer and editor.

3) I am passionate about inspiration and communications.

4) I love to help others achieve their highest good.

5) I am highly intuitive.

6) I know with certainty that I am surrounded by guardian angels, and I want others to understand that they are too.

7) I have been searching for my own higher spiritual truth for some time.

8) I am passionate about Reiki and the ability to help others reduce stress, balance their energy, and break free from old emotions that no longer serve them.

9) I believe in tolerance and making the world a kinder, more peaceful place.

10) I believe at the end of the day, the meaning of life is LOVE.

 

So I added all of these things into one big, boiling pot and stirred it right up, and I knew I finally had my answer.

I am a bridge for others. A human bridge.

My highest calling is to help others unlock their spiritual potential and abilities, to trust in their intuition, to help heal their body, mind, emotions, and spirit through Reiki, and to be an effective communicator who can make all this woo-woo stuff seem normal (it is) by using every day language. That's my calling in a nut shell. But let me tell you: That did not come easily.

 

My clients are among the best independent writers ever. They are beautiful, strong, passionate, smart women whom I have learned from, grown with, respected, and come to friend over the years. They will stay in my life long after this transition. But at the end of 2014, that's exactly what I knew I had to do. Transition. Grow. Spread my wings. Build my own dreams. Take care of me. Put my family first. Because no matter how small the effort, every time I agreed to help someone else, it was time taken away from my family. And my family was suffering. I was suffering. My health was suffering.

 

While standing there at that crossroads, agonizing over my decision and feeling as if I just broke up with my best friend(s), I asked my angels for guidance and did a reading with Jennifer Galasso's Crystal Visions deck - one of my very favorites. Not only did the entire reading downright floor me with its accuracy and much-needed divine timing of the messages I received, I was also very spiritually moved by the Nine of Swords card. Galasso's artwork is simply gorgeous in its imagery, and the idea of lying there, immobile, full of regret and indecision, and never getting up and owning my destiny...well, it stopped me cold.

 

The Nine of Swords is all about "guilt, anguish, and regret." Guilt over leaving my editing clients? Check. Anguish over whether I was making the right spiritual decisions? Check. Regret over giving up one dream, to pursue that which has yet to be unveiled? Check.

As you'll notice with the Nine of Swords card posted on the right side of this blog page, the woman has "taken to the ground in despair. She is paralyzed by fear and doubt, unable to move forward. The ravens perch on the swords that surround her, looking on, assessing the pain. They wait for her to pick up the ninth sword that rests by her side and move on." (quoted from: J. Galasso)

Ironically, the raven is one of my strongest animal guides (although, we all know there are no coincidences). There I was, immobilized by my emotions, agonizing over whether I was doing the right thing. And here was my answer: Pick up my sword and move on.

 

And I did. I picked up my damn sword, I've begun practicing Reiki, and I'm going to be blogging here about spiritual and life-affirming topics on this aptly named and divinely inspired page. I hope you'll share this terrifying and exhilarating journey with me.

 

More importantly, I hope you share your own journey with me as well. Because when we support one another's growth and evolvement, we all win. Have you picked up your sword and moved on yet? If not, what's stopping you? I can promise you this: God's got your back. Your angels are by your side. And whether you have an ah-ha moment or not, it's never too late to pick up that sword and follow your dreams.

 

As someone cool once said: "In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take."

 

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Artwork Credit:
Bodyscape by John Poppleton. Web site | Facebook.

Raven by Oddball Art. Etsy.